boys and girls.
sorry people, here's the most procrastinated post!a few day back, while i was walking alongside some pillars of tampines mall building, i chance upon the x-men movie posters. there were these quotes showing the two meaning of one person, like on the angel's poster, it shows 'alienated/liberated' while professor charles xavier shows ' teacher/manipulator' and phoenix (jeanGrey), it shows, 'tormented/powerful'. and it makes me wonder what is the opinion of different people on me. we are often viewed from different angle. the good and the bad. let's use a classic example from the x-men's show. to many people, the mutants are gifted to have their extraordinary powers, but to themselves, it may be a curse, something they wish they never have. why is it that everybody cant have the same view towards somebody or something. maybe its inevitable that we recieved critics and admirations throughtout our life. no matter how successful and commercialised one is, there will always be a bucket of cold water really to drop upon you. think david beckham, the most recognised footballer in modern world, with dashing looks, good football techniques, loads of money and never ending attention, why is it that despite all his achievement, there are always critical remark of how overrated he is? the higher you are, the greater the fall.
people always see each other on the superfical. often, we dont put ourselves into another's position. or should i we were often blinded by prejudice? different people have different view, and we always stood strong to our own thinking. thats why different idealogy clashes.
recently at work, i had a bust up with one of my philippines colleague. bust up sounds more like a overstatement, but thats why my other colleagues think. 'why you go and quarrel with maddie?' didnt want to correct them, i just kept silent. it all started that she, having saw one cute baby gets all too excited. she was like saying she's gonna give birth to a baby this cute too, and we were like disturbing her who is she going to give birth with. and i just remarked casually (obviously joking), what makes you think that the baby will be as cute as that?' harmless isnt it. but i dont understand that why does she have to take it so seriously? she just retorted back, you are so mean., and got pissed off. well, that dont really bother me, cuase we all know that she gets angry easily. and when i tried to asked her a question about the apparels in the wagon, she gave me this dont bother me attitude. yeah, its wrong for me to interrupt when she was talking to my colleague, but i asked her before she even gets into a converstion. my colleague said she didnt answer me because she was talking to him. and why i have to get pissed off when she didnt answer me. that is what i call judging from the outside. if she didnt want to be interrupt, does she have to sulk and shoo me off by waving her hands like swatting some flies? im not being unreasonable or immature to understand, her body language says it off. i have been trying to keep my temper down, i dont want to be known as temperamental. i just throw the shirt back angrily. is this considered a quarrel? no spike in it, and she completely got pissed off by that.
today, my manager approached me, and asked 'you are reallly not going to talk to her?' and i say why must i? since there is no necessity, i might as well stop flaming the fire. and thats the point to start a conversation when all i get is facing a sulk wih face as long as a bittergourd and blacker than the black pearls of the carribean?and he replied in a way, which makes me really feel that i've been wrong, 'you make her angry what' i mean what the hell did i even do? i didnt shout at her nor did i attack her. 'she is a girl what'. being a girl makes her have the right to be over sensible to a small causal joke? being a girl means i have to to take all the blames? been a girl, a women to be exact makes me a boy of immaturity? seriously, im born with maybe a more wicked sense of humour, if you really cant take my joke, then fuck off. not rude or what, or here to pin point whose right and whose wrong, or to shift all the blames away from me. im wrong in some way i admit. but that doesnt mean im the only villian. i just dislike the way people judge thing from the outside and by sexuality.
no offence, you girl or women, so what? i have always place ladies in a very respectable place. sometimes, it just get too irritating for me to really give way. its not a matter of
pride or that im chauvinistic, its just a matter of principles.
hate me if you want.
i always dont get what i want.
posted by koonann @ 11:32 PM
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