maybe i have been rather weary after so many days of works, but sometimes when my temper get the better of me, it aways put me in a fuck up situation.
i hate myself for having such a fiery temper, for being not able to control myself when fuck up situations arise. i dont like to see things going against the way i wanted it. and i dont want to be remember as that temperamental freak. i know i didnt win many fans with this sickening temper of mine.
take yesterday for example, we were climbing out of the school gates to get some food as we were really famished. on the way thru our illegal activity, we saw a group of current stuck up student of manjusri. walking like they have got testicles the size of a rambutan, emitting a foul stench of bad breathe from all that nicotine. (obviously underage smokers). we didnt really pay much attention to them and stood there to wait for huixian and siahmong to squeeze their way thru a small opening by the side. then, this guy trys to be funny, he point to the direction of siahmong who was stuggling to get out, then with his finger raised high up, he walked past kokhong, brushing past his hair with that dirty finger and also a slight nudge. i wasnt really amuse by his childish antics. for fuck sake, the path is not that narrow that you have to purposely get so close to my friend, the space is big enough for your fucking body to even lie down lor. so what if you manage to nudge my friend? does that gave you a very big sense of satisfation and accomplishment?
i know this nobody is trying to get us to start a fight, and he may be expecting us to be as immature and senseless as him. kokhong kept his cool and i didnt see a reason for me to blast at him. since we have much more meaningful stuff awaiting us than to get into a scuffle with these childeren.
so while we were having our meal at mac, we were told from a friend in school that those nonsense people climb into the school and got caught by the school caretaker, now, all the acess to the band room were locked. fucking good news sia. those monkeys got us stranded. tell me how not to be pissed?
but i admit i wasnt thinking and shout at someone who was totally not to blame thru the phone. thats my fault and i did hate myself for that.
but.. i didnt want to emphasise too much. i know it will cause quite a stir.
to you: YOU GOT IT ALL WRONG.
posted by koonann @ 12:04 AM
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