Earth to Bella. (There and back again)
to un-explainlove [n]:
Warm liking or affection: affectionate devotion
infatutated [adj]:
filled with an intense but usually foolish love
well, this pretty much sums up how puzzle im over my emotions, puzzled and clueless to the extend that i soughted a dictionary's advice. hah.
and no doubt, the latter seems to say it all.
long time since i got myself attracted to a girl. But happiness is short lived, somehow.
we barely know each other for more than two days, and i cant say its liking. just kinda interested.
before thing even progress, she broke out that she's attached.
i dont know why disappointment came knocking, at least it was masked successfully by siily grins.
Not really considered a rejection right in the face. at least things got clarify before it goes haywire. i didnt know what to say exactly. just by assuring her that everything is cool.
Who knows what will happen in the future, i may have got myself a life-long friend, a close bud or anywhere further one can imagine. who really knows.
contentment is knowing her, period.
silly post, been a really long time since i blogged or even talks about my emotions openly. its not a post of some dumb lovesick desperate. Emphasise again, we barely knew each other well enough, let alone talk about liking. just that i have learn that there's no point keeping everything to myself, showing care and concern in the dark is just a futile effort. no appreciation would be shown. Something i have learnt for the past three years or so.
Let my heart leads the way once again.
Where would we be now,
If we found each other first
What would you do now
If I said these simple words
I'll wait, I'll wait
As long as you want
-Good Charlotte
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