just my luck.
before the earth come to an end where global warming turn so serious that there's no more antartica, singapore would collaspe due to low birth rate.
bacause something is really wrong! its not the couple that is not copulating, its not that all the women suffered from cervical problems and its not that mens' sperm duct are too low. but because of all our mentality which is totally opposite to what's right.
men, dress like a women, drawing their eyebrows, speaking in a squeaky voice, holding hands with mens is just so so so common nowadays. dont believe? drop by the fox outlet at tampines mall and you will be greeted with this welcoming sight. and what the hell is wrong with you sissy, homosexual, cross dresser or whatever you call yourself. is it that exciting that you have to be different? yes, your fashion taste ,may be more feminie, put make up for what!
so, its wrong for me to criticise and codemn them, they have feelings too. ohh, so sorry, uhh, BUT WHY DO YOU HAVE TO CROSS MY PATH! DO I LOOK LIKE A GAY TO YOU, MUTHAFUCKERS.
i hate to kill my brain cells thinking about a person's sexuality, should i refer to that person as a him or a her. my colleaugues always tell me, go and touch and you will know liao.
today while talking about some lame stuff with my colleague, we saw this uhh, he/she. i dont know. we were like, ni na bei, ta bo, char bo? this person have rather long hair, and looks like a man but a women at the same time, maybe is because of the light make up. so i peeked to the chest to see if it was growing outward, eh, not leacherous hor, just to answer my question. so this person here is a man, because he have chest, quite muscular to make it look like breast. not well built thou and he was wearing a singlet, these black sleeveless that female always wear. so i didnt bother about him but was brought back to the subject when he speaks, its high pitch! and i turn over to look at him again. he was speaking like a women on purpose can tell. eeyyer. i was delighted when he got my colleague to serve him. but that idiot run away after he went into the fitting room. and he came out coming to me instead! knn, lottery also not so lucky.
'where is that guy arh? he said he will help me search, but he never get back to me, i waited for him soooo long in the fitting room but he didnt come'so me, being nice, served him. i couldnt find the black colour running shorts he wanted but did manage to get a blue one so now this guy is .
comtemplating whether to buy the black one which is bigger or the blue one which is exactly is nice but not his liking.he just stand there and i keep asking me what he should do. suddenly this awkward silence just fell between us. and he looked at me and say 'mind cracking uh?' yar, i thought, your sexuality is indeed mind cracking. HAHA. and who knows, he want me to judge for him.
'i put on, you wait outside the fitting room to see. i dont want to buy for the sake of buying.'
oh great! im indeed very lucky. so, i waited for him to change and out he comes with the xl black one which is too big for him.
''look like a mini skirt right? so awful, its so puffy at the side' as you know running shorts are very very short, way above the tight and it indeed likes big so i say yar, too big on you, i dont think you should get this. he continue ranting, yarlor, i dont want to buy for the sake of buying. and this time he quart down with both wrist in the air, up down up down. knn, and he suddenly pull up the back of the shorts and say. 'do my ass like big in it, uh, like very big leh, but i like' wahlao, i really cannot stand it, but i just reply to his evry question and rather obsence movement. god, this guy is so hard to please. and off he went to change to the other pair, and he wants me to stay outside the fitting room and not moving away. kaos. he came out do, the same squarting thing and i just entertain him lor, keep telling him its nice, will match other colours. and he finally decide to get that one. 'thanks for convincing me arh' psychotic smile.
so, no matter how hard i tried to shove him off, he just cling to me, even after he came out of the fitting room, he still ask me about the colour match. say it dont goes well. i lied, saying it looks good on him. and you know what! he want to buy it to sleep, so whats the point of the colour matching anot! nobody see okay! fucking joker, my heart was beating so fast throughout the 10 mins conversation you know!
he went off with leaning his body forward at the counter saying a gentle thank you to be and a flirtatious byebye. argh. i smiled back. whats your problem of saying so much thank you sia.
if you cross dress, i provide good service. with my suggestions lar, dirty minds, you think what. blowjobs?
to trash with these craps.
supposedly on mc today, but i still struggle to pull my aching body out of my cosy nest to prepare for another busy day at work. movement seems a little awkward, numbness in my stomach and also suffering from mutiple cramp, stupid irregular sleeping postures of mine.
uh, this intro seems to be abit long uh. its not suppose to be the topic of my post!
today, i met my fair share of really unreasonable customers. after enduring loads of craps last weekend, another pile of shit was dumped right to where i am. after so many months working in retail line, i still hate customers who talk craps.
they can come up to you with a pair of shoe and ask for the price.
siao eh: how much after discount?
me: uh. $112 sir
siao eh: huh, i no money leh.
IS IT MY PROBLEM THAT YOU HAVE NO MONEY MATHAFUCKER!
so trys to be friendly....
mr-funny: whaw your hair very cool hor. *moving hand in a up-down movement* like qi-long-zhu(dragonball) hor? -insert 'tsu tsu tsu' sound effect.
and the most typical nonsense from a indian. (pheng's favourite line)
mudball: shoooow me the best shoe that is the cheapest. shoooow me.
sadly to say, these are just some of the eye rollers. customers tend to have this habit of asking the obvious. why this one no discount? i thought great singapore sales? favourite phrase of gung ho shoppers. siao lian eh, singapore sales means everything must got discount lar? you go geylang find prostitute you ask them can give discount anot la, singapore sales what. i bet they wont give even 5% lor. they will tell you
'uncle, singapore got sales, china got bird flu leh'
truth is, no matter how excellent a service staff provides their service, consumer will never be satisfied, when you are good, people want to see the best. when you are the best people expects the excellent, there is absolutely no level of achievement for alll tthe ass wiping we have done.
yes, ass wiping, retail saleman are now known as the
bao ka liao.we are expected to shoulder everything, take all the blame and when the customer's right we have to clean their ass. then, we have to clear up all the craps they shit and then dumped it for them. its like an atomatic flushing toilet bowl.
so what if you came all the way from another part of singapore to pick up your shoe and realise its defective? and before you get facts clear, you gave a trashing to the saleman saying how pisse and disappointed you are? while you were complaining and complaining, did you offence the innocent salesperson? did you care? and then you turn around and say that one sentence from the salesperson offended you? a simple, 'its okay if you dont want to take it' it make it sound like she said it nonchalently, but while hurling your complaints at her, you were right?
well, no wonder you pout like a pig, look like a sow and somehow grow like one too.
these son and daughters of a bitch totally dont deserve much more of my time. to hell with your craps.
you never knew how much i want to be in you.
im starting to get pissed off with myself, i never seems to ever learn.
maybe i have been rather weary after so many days of works, but sometimes when my temper get the better of me, it aways put me in a fuck up situation.
i hate myself for having such a fiery temper, for being not able to control myself when fuck up situations arise. i dont like to see things going against the way i wanted it. and i dont want to be remember as that temperamental freak. i know i didnt win many fans with this sickening temper of mine.
take yesterday for example, we were climbing out of the school gates to get some food as we were really famished. on the way thru our illegal activity, we saw a group of current stuck up student of manjusri. walking like they have got testicles the size of a rambutan, emitting a foul stench of bad breathe from all that nicotine. (obviously underage smokers). we didnt really pay much attention to them and stood there to wait for huixian and siahmong to squeeze their way thru a small opening by the side. then, this guy trys to be funny, he point to the direction of siahmong who was stuggling to get out, then with his finger raised high up, he walked past kokhong, brushing past his hair with that dirty finger and also a slight nudge. i wasnt really amuse by his childish antics. for fuck sake, the path is not that narrow that you have to purposely get so close to my friend, the space is big enough for your fucking body to even lie down lor. so what if you manage to nudge my friend? does that gave you a very big sense of satisfation and accomplishment?
i know this nobody is trying to get us to start a fight, and he may be expecting us to be as immature and senseless as him. kokhong kept his cool and i didnt see a reason for me to blast at him. since we have much more meaningful stuff awaiting us than to get into a scuffle with these childeren.
so while we were having our meal at mac, we were told from a friend in school that those nonsense people climb into the school and got caught by the school caretaker, now, all the acess to the band room were locked. fucking good news sia. those monkeys got us stranded. tell me how not to be pissed?
but i admit i wasnt thinking and shout at someone who was totally not to blame thru the phone. thats my fault and i did hate myself for that.
but.. i didnt want to emphasise too much. i know it will cause quite a stir.
to you: YOU GOT IT ALL WRONG.
screwed,
ever encounter a day when you just feel completely remote to your surrounding? when you are feeling depressed over something you cant make up? your mind just run wild, fantasising over some things you wished will come true and the next moment, you thought of the opposite. crashing the smile of your face with a cruel hit of reality.
FUCK UP isnt it? to want something and nothing at the same times.
to have a long walk home alone facing the grounds thinking you have nothing but just a piece of crap life not worth having?
to sit on the ledge of the some building with mind of suicide? but smack yourselves out of the idea thinking that suicide is something only a 15th years old small ignorant girl would have thought of?
to act like a man of steel when what you actually feel like is just bursting out into tears on someone's shoulder?
maybe i had been hiding in my shadows all along, bluffing myself that im the man i thought i am. reaching for something that obviously is not what belongs to me.
if i never try, i would never know. even when its pointless.
no matter what, the joke is always on me, being the fool.
and i dont want the world to see me, bacause i dont think they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken, i just want you to know who i am.
boys and girls.
sorry people, here's the most procrastinated post!
a few day back, while i was walking alongside some pillars of tampines mall building, i chance upon the x-men movie posters. there were these quotes showing the two meaning of one person, like on the angel's poster, it shows 'alienated/liberated' while professor charles xavier shows ' teacher/manipulator' and phoenix (jeanGrey), it shows, 'tormented/powerful'. and it makes me wonder what is the opinion of different people on me. we are often viewed from different angle. the good and the bad. let's use a classic example from the x-men's show. to many people, the mutants are gifted to have their extraordinary powers, but to themselves, it may be a curse, something they wish they never have. why is it that everybody cant have the same view towards somebody or something. maybe its inevitable that we recieved critics and admirations throughtout our life. no matter how successful and commercialised one is, there will always be a bucket of cold water really to drop upon you. think david beckham, the most recognised footballer in modern world, with dashing looks, good football techniques, loads of money and never ending attention, why is it that despite all his achievement, there are always critical remark of how overrated he is? the higher you are, the greater the fall.
people always see each other on the superfical. often, we dont put ourselves into another's position. or should i we were often blinded by prejudice? different people have different view, and we always stood strong to our own thinking. thats why different idealogy clashes.
recently at work, i had a bust up with one of my philippines colleague. bust up sounds more like a overstatement, but thats why my other colleagues think. 'why you go and quarrel with maddie?' didnt want to correct them, i just kept silent. it all started that she, having saw one cute baby gets all too excited. she was like saying she's gonna give birth to a baby this cute too, and we were like disturbing her who is she going to give birth with. and i just remarked casually (obviously joking), what makes you think that the baby will be as cute as that?' harmless isnt it. but i dont understand that why does she have to take it so seriously? she just retorted back, you are so mean., and got pissed off. well, that dont really bother me, cuase we all know that she gets angry easily. and when i tried to asked her a question about the apparels in the wagon, she gave me this dont bother me attitude. yeah, its wrong for me to interrupt when she was talking to my colleague, but i asked her before she even gets into a converstion. my colleague said she didnt answer me because she was talking to him. and why i have to get pissed off when she didnt answer me. that is what i call judging from the outside. if she didnt want to be interrupt, does she have to sulk and shoo me off by waving her hands like swatting some flies? im not being unreasonable or immature to understand, her body language says it off. i have been trying to keep my temper down, i dont want to be known as temperamental. i just throw the shirt back angrily. is this considered a quarrel? no spike in it, and she completely got pissed off by that.
today, my manager approached me, and asked 'you are reallly not going to talk to her?' and i say why must i? since there is no necessity, i might as well stop flaming the fire. and thats the point to start a conversation when all i get is facing a sulk wih face as long as a bittergourd and blacker than the black pearls of the carribean?and he replied in a way, which makes me really feel that i've been wrong, 'you make her angry what' i mean what the hell did i even do? i didnt shout at her nor did i attack her. 'she is a girl what'. being a girl makes her have the right to be over sensible to a small causal joke? being a girl means i have to to take all the blames? been a girl, a women to be exact makes me a boy of immaturity? seriously, im born with maybe a more wicked sense of humour, if you really cant take my joke, then fuck off. not rude or what, or here to pin point whose right and whose wrong, or to shift all the blames away from me. im wrong in some way i admit. but that doesnt mean im the only villian. i just dislike the way people judge thing from the outside and by sexuality.
no offence, you girl or women, so what? i have always place ladies in a very respectable place. sometimes, it just get too irritating for me to really give way. its not a matter of
pride or that im chauvinistic, its just a matter of principles.
hate me if you want.
i always dont get what i want.
